Full Stop: Depression

Normally I would be so busy this time of year
Choosing special gifts for special people
Writing out holiday cards
Planning all the sweet treats I would make

I would have to remind myself
To pause and enjoy the season

But this year I’m doing none of that
Haven’t bought a single gift
Don’t plan to do cards
And whatever we eat will be what we have

I don’t know if I’ll even
Put up the Christmas tree

Instead of vibrant red and green
Or shiny silver and gold
I’m stalled in darkness

How do I recapture
Lost Christmas spirit?